Peace out 2014. It’s been real.

Here, I sit with a bun on my head and an appalling amount of green clay I’ve globbed onto my face. I call it a “mask.” Here, I sit basking in the light of my beautifully decorated Christmas tree, soaking it in while reminiscing on the past year. Tis the very end of year number 20, for moi. And as usual, I like to recap all the things I’ve experienced, both good and bad. The year 2014 started off hopeful, with the knowledge that nothing could be worse than 2013. And that has held true so far. When 2013 turned the corner and I saw 2014 as the light at the end of the tunnel I knew things would be far better than I could have hoped for…and I can’t say that I was wrong. Although 2014 brought its own new challenges, like living off campus, finding a place to park, actually working my butt off to get good grades, and trying to find a place to fit in…. I found that 2014 also brought its own new blessings, like learning how to get creative when I know I’m about to be late for class, and discovering how to position things in my room to block out the light of zooming cars out my window and the beeps, caused from less intelligent people driving on the wrong side of my one way street. The year brought much greater blessings than these, and the ones I’ve ignored are much too good to even try to put into words. You’ll just have to take my word for it. It was a splendid, lovely year. Now that I’m (partially) done bragging I have to review my bucket list and see if I actually did the things I told myself I would. Fingers crossed that I accomplished all (or at least most) of that list.

Voila! I’ve found it.

  1. Find a Hike: FAIL. To be completely honest, I don’t even think I tried.
  2. Accumulate vintage items: SEMI-ACCOMPLISHED. I bought an old Polaroid camera, that worked for only about a total of 4 pictures, the rest was just wasted and incredibly expensive film. I also got an old ring from my Nana, which is gorgeous and much more practical then a crappy camera, no offense. I’m stilling praying it will eventually work again.
  3. Bookstore: ACCOMPLISHED. I found a few, actually. Apparently Words on Wheels was a hit for me.
  4. Favorite book: ACCOMPLISHED. Jesus Calling. I read it everyday and so far no book has been better.
  5. Musication: SEMI-ACOMMPLISHED. I love having random songs sent to me, and I’ve received an assortment of music from an eclectic range of people. The most memorable songs of the year, for me, are: Dollhouse by Melanie Martinez, Bad Intentions by Niykee Heaton, Who Do We Think We Are by John Legend, and more that I’ll have to share in another post. Warning these songs are not really normal.
  6. Write a song: FAIL. I write them in my head… Does that count?
  7. Drive in theater: FAIL: Still waiting for someone to take me on a date to Coyote Drive In….
  8. Attend a concert: ACCOMPLISHED! Thanks to my great friend Lesli who won free Justin Timberlake concert tickets. Love ya, Les. And also Stagecoach, and of course Stagecoach again next year is already booked.
  9. Dress up: ACCOMPLISHED. I stuck to it. Rarely ever dressed poorly (or at least what I considered poorly, don’t ask my roommates if they agree), partially because I stopped working out the past 3 months because I was sick and kept pushing it off and I knew even if I put on work out clothes I wouldn’t make it to the gym. Next year I have to dress business casual EVERY. SINGLE. DAY.
  10. Get a job: ACCOMPLISHED… let me repeat. I have to dress business casual EVERY. SINGLE. DAY. At least I get my own binder and my own business cards. I have to brush up on my persuasion skills because as a new TCU Student Media Account Executive, I have to sell ads like there’s no tomorrow.

And so, I’d like to think I had a very well rounded year. Stayed in the grey area for the most part. I guess I finally realized that not everything is black or white. And while that may be kind of boring, it was exactly what I needed before entering my next year, my 21st. Cheers!

Preview For Next Blog Post: I plan on doing a short year recap with a couple pictures and ending with a list of tips I’ve learned throughout the past year. For readers who are actively paying attention, let me know if there is anything else I should (or shouldn’t…) post. Thanks and Happy Holidays.

What is the Meaning of Life? (as told by Tara)

We are often told that we will never know the meaning of life. Only “Higher Beings” know why we exist, why we are placed on earth, what purpose we are serving. I believe in following His path; I believe He has a plan for me. But I also believe it’s okay to decide what the meaning of life is in our own terms. Wanna know what I think our purpose in life is? 

  • to explore
  • to be kind
  • to be fair
  • to learn
  • to experience
  • to admit oblivion 
  • to submit ourselves
  • to cry
  • to smile
  • to laugh
  • to deny
  • to grow
  • to observe
  • to play
  • to love
  • to try to understand
  • to challenge ourselves
  • to have passion
  • to travel
  • to be spontaneous 
  • to drink coffee and tea
  • to be an individual
  • to rebel
  • to obey too
  • to eat delicious food
  • to tell and share
  • to listen
  • to try
  • to live

Why am I not allowed to know what my purpose in life is? This is it. I’m here to live it. Fight with me, or don’t, but this is the statement I am making:

We don’t have to wait to be told the meaning of our lives. We can live life by following our own definition of it.

Be free to think on your own, ladies and gents. Find your purpose and live it the way you want. 

Bye, Adios, Ciao, Au Revoir, Adieu, Arrivederci, Auf Wiedersehen and Farewell.. live well!

With Messy Hair and Eager Eyes

You know that one song that you hear, it comes on every once in a while, and it’s the one that makes you feel invincible. It takes you away from drowning yourself in other thoughts. Let’s replace that song with living exactly how we envision our lives would be when hearing that melody and inspirational lyrics.

1. Free yourself from expectations. Go find a new friend who has nothing in common with you and talk until you’ve become best friends.

2. Go out for a walk by yourself. Not a run. A walk. Take your time. Don’t rush to be back with friends or get back to studying. Seriously, take your time.

3. Don’t brush your hair. Even if you care, pretend you don’t. This one may be a risky one, but maybe avoid public places unless you are going to the beach.

4. Fall asleep to peaceful sounds. Maybe it is the crashing of waves on your favorite beach. Maybe its rain. Just do it.

5. Eat the second bowl of ice cream. (AJ would agree with this one.) Count the calories? Absolutely not. Be happy, not crazy.

The point I am trying to get across is simple. Color outside the lines. Conformity is comfortable, but being yourself should be the easiest thing to do. 

A book titled 2014

Its only page 22 of this crazy book

Life isn’t always as scary as it looks

We fall and we cry but we get back up again

We laugh and we smile to feel the tingling of our skin

 

Page 22 it’s too early for mistakes

For men or for life to be taken away

Too early for giving up or saying no

But it’s not too late to say “hello”

 

Forget your fears maybe pretend you don’t care

And soon you’re already half way there

Tell that bitch to take a hike

Don’t give in to the things you dislike

 

Now is your chance to start brand new

Remember it is only page 22

You have 343 more to go to find yourself

And save yourself from your personal hell

 

This is a happy song to renew your soul

A private book for only you to know

Jot down your thoughts

Let your mind speak free

Don’t lift your hand of that paper

Find out what its like to be who you really want to be

 

Page 22 and time is turning

Don’t forget to stop learning

Listen closely and look to see

What’s in store for page 23.