Peace out 2014. It’s been real.

Here, I sit with a bun on my head and an appalling amount of green clay I’ve globbed onto my face. I call it a “mask.” Here, I sit basking in the light of my beautifully decorated Christmas tree, soaking it in while reminiscing on the past year. Tis the very end of year number 20, for moi. And as usual, I like to recap all the things I’ve experienced, both good and bad. The year 2014 started off hopeful, with the knowledge that nothing could be worse than 2013. And that has held true so far. When 2013 turned the corner and I saw 2014 as the light at the end of the tunnel I knew things would be far better than I could have hoped for…and I can’t say that I was wrong. Although 2014 brought its own new challenges, like living off campus, finding a place to park, actually working my butt off to get good grades, and trying to find a place to fit in…. I found that 2014 also brought its own new blessings, like learning how to get creative when I know I’m about to be late for class, and discovering how to position things in my room to block out the light of zooming cars out my window and the beeps, caused from less intelligent people driving on the wrong side of my one way street. The year brought much greater blessings than these, and the ones I’ve ignored are much too good to even try to put into words. You’ll just have to take my word for it. It was a splendid, lovely year. Now that I’m (partially) done bragging I have to review my bucket list and see if I actually did the things I told myself I would. Fingers crossed that I accomplished all (or at least most) of that list.

Voila! I’ve found it.

  1. Find a Hike: FAIL. To be completely honest, I don’t even think I tried.
  2. Accumulate vintage items: SEMI-ACCOMPLISHED. I bought an old Polaroid camera, that worked for only about a total of 4 pictures, the rest was just wasted and incredibly expensive film. I also got an old ring from my Nana, which is gorgeous and much more practical then a crappy camera, no offense. I’m stilling praying it will eventually work again.
  3. Bookstore: ACCOMPLISHED. I found a few, actually. Apparently Words on Wheels was a hit for me.
  4. Favorite book: ACCOMPLISHED. Jesus Calling. I read it everyday and so far no book has been better.
  5. Musication: SEMI-ACOMMPLISHED. I love having random songs sent to me, and I’ve received an assortment of music from an eclectic range of people. The most memorable songs of the year, for me, are: Dollhouse by Melanie Martinez, Bad Intentions by Niykee Heaton, Who Do We Think We Are by John Legend, and more that I’ll have to share in another post. Warning these songs are not really normal.
  6. Write a song: FAIL. I write them in my head… Does that count?
  7. Drive in theater: FAIL: Still waiting for someone to take me on a date to Coyote Drive In….
  8. Attend a concert: ACCOMPLISHED! Thanks to my great friend Lesli who won free Justin Timberlake concert tickets. Love ya, Les. And also Stagecoach, and of course Stagecoach again next year is already booked.
  9. Dress up: ACCOMPLISHED. I stuck to it. Rarely ever dressed poorly (or at least what I considered poorly, don’t ask my roommates if they agree), partially because I stopped working out the past 3 months because I was sick and kept pushing it off and I knew even if I put on work out clothes I wouldn’t make it to the gym. Next year I have to dress business casual EVERY. SINGLE. DAY.
  10. Get a job: ACCOMPLISHED… let me repeat. I have to dress business casual EVERY. SINGLE. DAY. At least I get my own binder and my own business cards. I have to brush up on my persuasion skills because as a new TCU Student Media Account Executive, I have to sell ads like there’s no tomorrow.

And so, I’d like to think I had a very well rounded year. Stayed in the grey area for the most part. I guess I finally realized that not everything is black or white. And while that may be kind of boring, it was exactly what I needed before entering my next year, my 21st. Cheers!

Preview For Next Blog Post: I plan on doing a short year recap with a couple pictures and ending with a list of tips I’ve learned throughout the past year. For readers who are actively paying attention, let me know if there is anything else I should (or shouldn’t…) post. Thanks and Happy Holidays.

Guess Who’s Back? Back Again!

After a lengthy break, I’ve decided that I will return to religiously writing to my blog. No, I didn’t forget it existed (well….maybe I did). I have simply just come to realize that I physically cannot function without purging words. And so the blog will continue, so please tag along with me as I catch up on the past two (or whatever) months I’ve neglected all of you. My apologies. It won’t happen again (anytime soon).

Last, I left you with my Dear Abby posts! I am really excited about them and I need to start promoting them again. I’ve gotten some really cool questions and I love giving advice. If you haven’t asked a question, don’t be scared. IT’S ANONYMOUS!! I promise… and I don’t lie. And even if you aren’t brave enough to ask Abby for some help, at least tell a friend because someone will always be in need of a little advice.

Okay moving on from the self-promoting, before the Dear Abby posts, most of my posts were short poems and random spurts of mindless babbling. Thank you and I’m sorry if that’s all you’ve seen thus far. I vow to be more insightful and thought provoking, hopefully.

Before that…. I made a list of things I wanted to do while at school. Lets take a look at that (again) and I will tell you what exactly I did end up accomplishing (and again).


What To Do, What To Do?

  1. Find a decent hike in Fort Worth  I wouldn’t necessarily call it a hike, but I did go kayaking in the Trinity River… that was kind of weird. I also stayed earthy with Caitlin while we hammocked (it’s a verb) frequently.
  2. Attain a few vintage items  I wouldn’t necessarily say that I found it in Fort Worth… or even Texas for that matter. But, I am proud to announce that I, Tara McQueen, finally own a vintage Polaroid camera. It has yet to be used, because I don’t have film or paper yet. Someone come help me figure it out.
  3. Search for the perfect book store  Finally! This one I accomplished. I am really thrilled about this because it was such a fluke. Caitlin and I had set out to go look at two bookstores in town. Unfortunately, we were stuck in traffic for about 45 and missed both stores seeing as they closed at 5 and that’s when FW traffic is even worse than normal. So we found ourselves lost on Magnolia when I ran into a dinky little bus on the side of the road. The WOW bus. http://www.thewowbus.com Go check them out! They would love some new people to be browsing around for some cool books.
  4. Find a new favorite book  Don’t laugh at me, but I am telling you finals week was the best week of my life. I read ALL of my books in that one week. I will say I’ve never felt so inspired, luckily I used that for testing which left no inspiration for writing… Oh well, it was used effectively. I would also like to add that I currently just read The Outsiders by S. E. Hinton. I never read it in High School, but I am glad I finally found the chance to this summer. If you haven’t read it I highly recommend it. I read it in a day or two. So easy, but so good.


    Nothing Gold Can Stay Nature’s first green is gold, Her hardest hue to hold. Her early leaf’s a flower; But only so an hour. Then leaf subsides to leaf. So Eden sank to grief, So dawn goes down to day. Nothing gold can stay. 



  5. Get a music education  Lesli downloaded The Beatles first album. I obsessed over Ellie Goulding and cried over the fact that I didn’t get to see her perform when I literally had 5 chances. That is all.
  6. Write a song  Lesli and I both wrote a song, and never put music to it. Yay us. But, we did discover how to harmonize (Lesli won’t agree) to Hallelujah and I learned to play that on the piano. That’s pretty exciting.
  7. Go to the drive-in theater This is literally the EASIEST thing to do on my list and I failed. I failed miserably. In my defense it rained and was cold whenever I wanted to go. I also don’t have a truck. Yeah, I have enough excused to put this off until next year. Any takers? Anyone have a truck and down to see a movie? Cool beans. Hit me up.
  8. Attend a concert  Like I said, pissed I didn’t get to see Ellie Goulding, but stoked cuz Caitlin and I randomly got to see Scotty McCreery one night. I was also lucky enough to attend Stagecoach Country Music Festival in Indio, California. Caitlin, Teresa, and I had a blast! And since Hunter Hayes was so great I decided to buy tickets to his show tomorrow night at the Del Mar Fair. Yee Haw.
  9. Dress up  100% dressed up nearly every day the whole year. I am really proud of this. In appreciation of my efforts, I let myself off on the last night of school and went to the bars in just a plain tee and lululemon shorts. Yeah… I did it! whataryagonnadoboutit?
  10. Get a job oops

Thanks for catching up with me, readers! Stay posted! Congratulations to all of the graduates this year. Have the happiest of summers!

 

If the Shoe Fits, Why Not?

(disclaimer: this was written on tuesday, 2-18-14)

I have learned during the past weeks I’ve spent here that adjusting doesn’t always mean conforming. Yeah, TCU girls on their way to class are a big fashion faux pas. It’s a disaster waiting to happen. You run into that new boy you like, sorry, but you look like a mess. This is the part I refused to adjust to at TCU. Yes, I conform to the Greek life culture; I do not conform to oversize tee shirts that make me look 30 pounds heavier than I am. I will admit as I write this that I am wearing a long sleeve (non-figure flattering) Endless Summer shirt paired with black lulus and blue converse. Not at my peak, but I did wear a sassy business dress for a good majority of the day. And now it’s cold, so forgive me for dressing accordingly to the weather for just a second. Sorry students in my Lab class, but I am not trying to please you right now.

But all this is beside the point. As I am adjusting to the new college culture, I have learned to conform from identity to identity. Yet I am still able to maintain a stable identity of my own. Am I not making sense? Here let me make this clearer by using an example.

Conforming in the sense of adjusting.

I show up to my chapter meeting and my seating is not in its usual order, I am not squeezed next to my talking buddy who I used to sit next to for every meeting. Am I going to make the best of it instead? You betcha. Lucky for me I get to form a bond with the new ‘sisters’ I get to sit next to. Adjusting to change, conforming to sorority sisterhood expectations.

Well speaking about sisters, Caitlin (yes, I consider her a sister) and I decided to play into the role of Texas Californians. Does that make sense? We embraced our California mentality and explored the artsiest of neighborhoods we could find in Fort Worth.  It was totally worth it. Adjusting the California mindset to what Texas has to offer.Image

Naturally, during our spontaneous adventure we thought the only rational way to end this day would be to go to Billy Bob’s to see Scotty McCreery in concert. Now I am not gonna lie here… I am not country music’s biggest fan, however, when in Texas…, right? I kick on my cowboy boots and head to the rodeo, pretending to be the real cowgirl that I am. Conformity? Yeah, probably. Fun? AbsolutelyImage

It sure seems like Caitlin and I had a crazy cool weekend. Even on Monday it continued on. Caitlin was super stoked that her Eno hammock came in. I committed to helping her set it up and try it out. Given it was a pretty boyish color (puke green and brown) us to girls added a little pizazz to it. We hung that bad boy up on a tree and climbed in, both crossing our fingers. If this sucker falls down, that is for sure a broken tailbone. Am I usually adventurous like this? No, not necessarily as much as I’d like to think. So yeah I pushed myself to meet Caitlin’s expectations of hammock chiller.

Overall, I’d say this whole experience has been successful. It may be altering your perspective or altering your actions, but being able to stay true to yourself and opening up new and different doors for yourself really isn’t that bad.

I could ramble on and on, but assuming some of y’all have as short of an attention span as I do… I’ll spare you the time and wrap it all up. What I am trying to get at here is that you can ALWAYS change yourself into who you want to be.