A Powerful Playlist

So my friend’s college fellowship has established a theme for their 2013-2014 academic year. It’s called Personal Spiritual Playlist, which is essentially a “playlist” (or set) of “songs” (or activities) under different “genres” (or spiritual disciplines) that bring 1. joy and 2. me closer to God. 

1. Prayer/ Worship
. Continue finding bible verses that directly affect me per each day. For instance when I am feeling alone and scared I pick up my bible and read Psalm 23. I write down a few words that remind me that God is always there for me and then I continue to write a small prayer thanking him for his guidance and asking for his forgiveness and help for the upcoming day. I have never done this before, but this past week and a half have seemed much more lovely with God by my side.

2. Service
. Similar to my friend’s service I plan to fast for one day a month. For me it is to act less selfish in life and prove my will power to be a strong believer of God. I am choosing to do this on the 13th of every month, as it has an important meaning in my life and I need God to always be with me on that day to give me strength and hope.

3. Obedience. 
I plan on keeping my friends on track with our weekly routine of going to church. I vow to be a strong believer and behave like a Christian rather than just saying that I am one.

4. Rejuvenation
. I recently have been cleared by my doctor to run. I find that running is typically one of my best stress reducers. I will encourage myself to “run it out” when I feel that I can’t handle the pressure of the world. Like my friend I too enjoy writing, whether it be for this blog or anything else really.

5. Fun
. I think this may be my hardest challenge on this playlist. I wish there was a secret recipe for fun, but because there isn’t I am deciding to make one. I’ll keep you updated when it starts looking like it is complete. Wish me luck!

6. Belief. When I find my self in times of trouble I need to remember to hold my wrist. Feel God’s presence there on that cross and remind myself that I am never alone and I can make it through whatever situation that comes my way. Believe in Him and believe in myself.

7. Heaven. I promise to be the best angel I can be. I promise to listen to and help my friends and family, be there for them through thick and thin. I hope I can go above and beyond and constantly remind them how much they mean to me.


Permanent Ink


my wrist tattoo

For a girl who is afraid of commitment the word permanent should make me cringe. Oddly, this is not the case when the word permanent is paired with the word ink. It would be silly not to relate permanent ink to the most obvious art: tattoos. Yes, I am currently in constant adoration of my new little tattoo. A small little cross gives me so much strength. For me, resting my thumb on my wrist and rubbing the still inflamed flesh I am reminded of who I am and who I want to be. After a confusing couple of months, or years I suppose, I am finding myself developing into the person I would like to become, separating myself from the person I was, and accepting myself as I am right now. I am not perfect, in fact I am nowhere close to perfect, but the good thing about that is the way we live doesn’t have to be permanent. If we don’t like the way things are going in life, we have the power and ability to change it. Here is the catch though; the permanent ink I was referring to isn’t a tattoo. This kind of permanent ink is a little scarier and a little more fragile. It is words. Words are permanent. They are powerful and potent. We must use the important ones more sparingly. Use the encouraging words more frequently. Use the enchanting ones more elegantly.  Use the heartbreaking words more carefully.  We must learn to keep the damaging words to ourselves and remind each other that we often forgive, but we rarely forget. We can’t change what we said; once they leave our lips they are permanent. These words are the tattoos in our hearts.